Trying To Write It Out

Yesterday morning, I walked to the train and noticed this decorated tree and house. So I grabbed my phone and took a picture. The sky was so blue. The sun very bright. The air  calm and not too cool. A perfect Christmas sight.

Little did I know that at the same time, so many were losing their lives and others facing unspeakable terror.  My mind cannot process this madness. I fell asleep thinking about it and woke up thinking about it too. As I made up my bed, I thought about the parents who lost their children. How those parents would not be able to wake their kids up this Saturday morning. Their beds weren't slept in.

When I get anxious and my mind races, the best thing is for me to write. Write out what I'm feeling and get it out, so my mind can relax. I feel for those families. Those whose lives were lost. The first responders who had to see what nobody should have to see. I feel for them all and am praying for them all. But times like this make me wonder where was God?

That this happened during the holidays makes it so much worse. When everything is supposed to be joyous. Eating sweets and kids dreaming of Santa. I was in the store today and saw this little girl. She was running around playing with a ball. Not a care in the world. Her eyes sparkled and she was smiling the biggest smile and playing with her curly hair. She couldn't have been more than five.

I thought about those kids at Sandy Hook. I can't stop thinking about them. Can any of us?

*Updated 12/26/2012*  #26Acts of Kindness was started by Ann Curry as a way to make something good come from all the sadness. It's really inspiring to see what people are doing. I'm working on my own #26Acts. Take a look at the live tweets below.

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Esme said…
what happened was a horrible event-I cannot imagine the pain the families must be suffering through.
Lisa Johnson said…
esme - I watched President Obama speak tonight and think it was one of his best speeches. I'm hoping that this week something big will happen with gun control. This madness has to stop. *sigh*
Melissa B. said…
A week before Christmas, and I've spent a good portion of the weekend at odds with myself. I started crying when I arrived at school today. Something about that teeming mass of teenage humanity struck me at my core. Two girls hugged me, I wiped away my tears and I soldiered on. That's what we teachers do.
Lisa Johnson said…
melissa b. - Welcome and thank you for stopping by. I'm sure the girls needed the hug just as much as you did. Thank you for all that you do!
SE'LAH... said…
prayers sent up for all those who are suffering. exhale.

Wishing you the warmest holiday season, filled with love, peace, and harmony.

one love,
Lisa Johnson said…
se'lah - The more prayers the better. Happy Holidays to you as well. Here's hoping that 2013 will bring all the best to you and yours!

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